I am a lost man(3) ~My friends left me out~

 I am a lost man who was left out by my friends. I'm shocked and sad, so I try to write my unfocused feelings. 

Q. Why they leave you out?

A. Well, they were my best friends when I was a junior high school student. So, is it because our bond have rusted by long time passed? Uuum, maybe no. because it seems that they have hanged out many times excluding me.

Maybe, they haven't liked me very much from the begining. I have come up with the possibility some times, but I have ignored it. After all, my intuition hits.

Q. How did you recognize that you had left by your friends? 

A. I recognized it by my invitation to hang out using chat apps. There are six people in the group, but, only one friend reply. I felt a little anger. However, he said OK, then it was time to decide which date or where we go. I try to find a good time, he suddenly suggested a date that is completely different to my suggestion. Fortunately, I would be free on that day, so I replyed OK. Then he said we finally hang out with everyone. I understood they had already found a good time excluding me. 

Q. What do I feel now?

A. I feel sad and come up with anger gradually.クソが！

Though it is the fuckin' reality, I have to accept it with laughing. If I become alone, If everyone hates me, I would accept it with laughing.

Bye.